I've tried my best but people still think that I'm not trying at all. I'm just not good enough for my family, for my friends, for anyone. I'm just a stupid and useless girl. Why can't people except me for who I am? Am I that bad? I'm so tired of dealing with this. Did you know why I'm like  obsessed with bands, TV shows, and YouTubers ? Because I don't want to think about it. It is basically an escape.And the bands and YouTubers also make me feel acceptable. People just love her more than they love me and that hurts. I can never ever measure to her. And I'm tired of it. I'm tired of trying to be better. I'm tired of being in the shadow. I'm tired of being strong. I'm tired of everything.