Tears fall as I let the cold water touch my skin. Reclecting on what I've done. I shouldn't have done that. Now, "Sorry" seems to be the hardest word in the world to say. If I could turn back times, I would do anything to stop my mouth from saying that. "Tongue like a nightmare that can cut like blade". Yep, that's me. Why did only realize it now? Realize that most of the things I say will only cause trouble. Tears keep falling and falling and without I realize, It starts to rain on my face. I'm such a terrible child. I'm sorry.

Obsessions

1. Suits



Just look at those blue eyes. *sigh*

Btw, I'm gonna rant about the new Suits episode. So, beware. Mike, you're so cute and I never hated you. But what you did on the last episode made me hate you. I forgive you though. It's not exactly your fault anyways. You're going through hard times . You just lost someone who means the world to you. Someone who took care of you when your parents died. You've lost your Grandma. And you can't think straight. hmphhh. Btw, I can't wait till January to know what will happen !! Gaaaaaah!

2. Merlin

Yayyy ! Finally! I've been waiting for 9 freaking months ! It's here finally ! I hope Freya will come back. Come back bb,



And Queen Guinevere ! You go Gwen !

The days

This week? Ehhh, It's fine. I guess. Well, firstly, I just realized something. Something that kinda let me down, shattered me. But, yeahh, I'm fine. Whatever. Secondly, It's examination week ! My sleeping schedule is messed up ! Like, SERIOUSLY.



And maths, why u no be good to me?! Well, on the bright side, I made a new friend ! But, he's kinda annoying like my cousins. No, I don't hate my cousins. They're nice actually. What else... Hm, that's it ,I guess. Byee :)

P/S : I'm shattered 'cause I'm unbroken. Andd, I don't swear ! Yayy !

Remember this?

"Epic-Night-Ever!!
Teacher slamming the table.
A guy with a lot of comedies. (Tahu je laa apa dia buat)
Fatin Shafiqah and Nur Liyana laughing at something I don't know.
"Stuff" under the table that me and Fatin that we thought smell like lemon.
Saw 2 guys eating lemons.
Terkejut gila nampak cikgu marah camtu.
Hope next week on Wednesday mcm ni juga.
All happened masa tuition. :D"

#memories

Happy Birthday Nicholas Bernard Santino !!

I want to thank you for all the beautiful songs you've made. You're the one who got me into All Time Low , Before You Exit and more. I will never forget your undying love for Taylor Swift and John Mayer. You are truly an awesome guy. I love you <3

P/s : Can't wait for Wild & Free !!

In My Head

Why you have to be sooo ungrateful? I don't care what the fuck happens in you life but please, be grateful. It's not like you're losing everyone in you life. Look, I was and still is there for you but you never realise it don't you? You're just too ungrateful to realise that there's still someone who fucking cares about you.

Second or last

I was and still is the second choice, in my family, at school , anywhere,in everything.It's always been about someone else. Someone who is close to me. Sometimes, it makes me feel useless, worthless ,invisible. They look down on me. It's like I'm the cat on a street which everyone hates and that "Someone" is a Persian cat which everyone admire. But, have anyone ever thought that they are ALL the same. They are ALL cats. Same goes to us. That "Someone" is a human and I obviously not an alien. We are All humans. We ALL have feelings. We ALL have our own specialities. But sadly, some people only have eyes for certain specialities. Making others feel bad when they don't have THAT specialities.

Be Yourself And Fuck Everything Else

Remember the "Be Yourself And Don't Care What They Think" post that I did a while ago? A while? Feels like ages. By the way, to be honest, sometimes I read it when I'm feeling down. It just remind me of what type of person I used to be and how much I've changed ever since. And Shit, A LOT. I've changed a lot. I am now the sensitive, cry over little things, worried about everything, scared, insecure kind of girl. And I hate it. I really want to be the old me . Where is it?

I’m the girl who tries to be nice to everyone then gets taken advantage of. I’m the girl who tries to look pretty and it’s never good enough. I’m the girl who acts like she’s happy then goes home and wishes to be gone. I’m the girl who takes harsh words, act like they’re nothing, then goes home and cries. I’m the girl who tries to get her point across and could never find the right words. I’m the girl who has more depth to her than everyone thinks. I’m the girl who hides from the harsh eyes. I’m the girl who wouldn’t care if you gave me a shitty gift as long as you thought of me. I’m the girl who hopes that someone will finally understand. I’m the girl who gets happy over the little things. I’m the girl that people misinterpret.

*Credits to the rightful owner.

The Reckless and The Brave

It's sooo good. And they released it for free on their website. F***ing FREE !! They're too nice ! I love them :{D

Yes, I love my family. Yes, I love my sister. Yes, I envy her. Yes, I'll miss my brother (I will never ever say that to his face ). Yes, I miss my old friends. Yes, I love ALL of my friends. Yes, I miss the old you. Yes, I miss the old me. Yes, I cried. Yes, I keep things to myself. Yes, I feel useless. Yes, I'm weird. Yes, I feel sad knowing my friends don't trust me or forget me. Yes, It feels sooo good. Yes, I love you. Yes, YOU ! And last but not least, Yes, I Love Allah.


P/S : Yes, I know the picture look like it's "mirrored". But It's originally like that. Yes, It's my fault.

It's True

The rumour is true ! They did audition for TXF. Wowwwwww. There's nothing I can do than to support them. So , YEAHH BYE FTW !

Before You Exit

There's a rumour going around saying that BYE auditioned for X-Factor. Omg, Just , No. NO NO NO. I just don't want them to be famous yet. I still can't believe this is happening. DAMN.. Hope it's not true. and, someone said that Britney, Simon , and LA Reid says yes but Demi says NO. It's funny because BYE and Demi are both a really good friend of All Time Low. And I know that it sounds selfish when I say I don't want them to be famous but that's the truth. I just don't want them to be like One Direction. Having girls screaming their lungs out. I just.. I'm not ready. Not yet. Plus, X-Factor don't even let them play their instruments. They're not a BOYBAND, they're a BAND. How can I watch them without seeing Braiden playing guitar and Thomas's damn mad drumming skills? I don't want them to change.

Damnn

You just HAVE to bring me down right? Yes, I know that you're pretty, skinny and everything that I'm not. Damn it, can't you see the hurt in my eyes? I CRIED OK. All these years, It's always been about you. I was nothing compared to you. Can't you realized it already?

I present you Freddie Benson, The Jerk

After This?



I wanna KILL YOU RIGHT NOW !

Parked

It's just so beautiful. Cried for like 3 times. What kind of a human being is his father? You don't even care when your son said goodbye as in he's going to die. You turn your back when he needs your help. You heartless man.

Everything.

I know no one will read this but I'm still going to tell/type it. I'm gonna start with camping.It was fun but freaking horrible and scary and tiring of course. Tuesday, there's this 2 girls in my class which ruined my whole day. Let me tell you what they did, I was walking alone to the science lab and suddenly they came up behind me and say "Fatin lonelyyy". F you dude for reminding me! and if you're reading this, please change your attitude. Plus, who would kill themselves for getting B in exam? Not me. Thursday, My birthday !!Thankyou for everyone who wished me. Well honestly, I don't even know what to feel that day. Soooo many things happened. And to YOU who gave my phone number to someone I barely know, F you! I don't need it dude. Saturday, Roadrun. Sooooo F tired. But whatever cause there's a new iCarly video and promooo. Sam asked Freddie who kissed better. Her or Carly. Made my day. I was just wondering, how will the Directioners watch iGo One Direction? If you need help about that, I can totally help. I've been livestreaming iCarly for the past year.I bet no one will seek for my help. SOOOOOO, yeah. That's how my week goes.

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